God And "Everything".

 "But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you."

Matthew 6:33

"Why are they not here yet? Why am I not having this and that yet? Whatever happened to the thing I have spent my schedule on for weeks of prayer and the times I have fasted?"

It's given already, you are Christian, you serve God. You've already "perfected" the Christian faith (or at least 'cause you just feel like it). You seem to have followed the Thou Shall not's. But is that all there is? Is that all the reason of the blood shedding, cross enduring of Jesus? Are these all the reason for the Passion of Christ?

We want our family restored. We want excellent service. Extravagant praise and worship. We want extensive growth in our ministry. We want people to know Jesus. To be a believer of Christ. We all want the best. We want to be the best. All for the glory of God. 

And it is not bad wanting those things.

When we serve, we're asking of God of His anointing. So that God would speak through us. So that His spirit would move through us. 

We want God Himself to speak to people. To touch their hearts. To be the one in control of the ministering. We want Him to increase as we decrease. 

We would pray real hard for people to get saved. For every members of our family to come to know Jesus. 

We look forward to the "reward". 

And again, it's not bad asking for those things.

After all, our Father told us to ask anything in the name of Jesus. After all, He taught us to call things which are not as though they were. 

But then the blessings are just not here yet.

And we'd think this whole Christian faith is failing. Have I sinned? Am I still lingering on my fleshly desires? Are there any offenses in my heart? Have I offended someone? We would worry that there could be some unpleasant thing we've done that caused for God to not bless us.

What is it that brings us satisfaction, the giving of the blessings or the Giver of the blessings?

We would delight seeing people that we reach out to get closer to God but are we closer enough to bring them to His presence? 

We want our family restored. Or maybe we're just liking the satisfaction of not having to struggle at home. Restoration so that we would have the kind of Dad or Mom we've been praying for. Restoration so that we could get along with the siblings. Do we ask for restoration only to not endure the opposite of it?

We want to make every people believe in Jesus Christ. To follow Him. There are lots of time we spend praying for them to get saved. But have we asked for them to be like Christ? Well, it's hard asking for it if we don't know Christ Himself. It's hard seeing a person becoming like Christ if we don't know how it is like to be Christ-like.

We ask for our reward for having done everything we've told to do in His Kingdom. But have we ever lived a life inside His Kingdom? Or have we just existed there only for a moral requirement? And so asking for our reward is having us payed for like a slave. Only in return for the service we have rendered. So much for our redemptive being as an adopted sons and daughters of God the Father. 

We are in so much hope for an extensive growth in the ministry. We want lots of sheep at the barnyard but we have forgotten of the Shepherd who once have tended and is tending us before we could ever be into our rightful place. 

God has intended for everything that we need to come only from Him so that we'll seek Him just as often as we needed to breathe.

Having received a blessing is really hard. Because it's just it: receiving blessings. And you know, we do not have the ability of creating blessings. But how many times have we asked for the Giver of the blessings? 

God have told us many times to ask. Asking was never a bad thing for Him. Asking is the way God made to make us closer to Him. Because God has promised that when we ask, we will receive. Because He Himself is a Father who gives. 

I'm praying for all the people to come to know Jesus. For the restoration of my family. For them to get saved. I serve God and is a part of an amazing ministry of passionate young people. And I'm praying for a breakthrough, to keep the good work and keep advancing His Kingdom. 

And for the precious years that I've been serving Him I realized that what I need is not just for the long list of prayer requests to be answered or the blessings that I will receive. All I ever needed is God. That the very reason of all these things is Him. 

That "all these things" is just a thing after God.