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"Now repent of your sins and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped away. Then times of refreshment will come from the presence of the Lord, and he will again send you Jesus, your appointed Messiah."  Acts 3:19-20 My prayer is that we will once again be WITH Jesus and not just people who knows that there is a Jesus that we should worship. Been through a lot of binding sins and thoughts not pleasing to the Lord. Hindi naman ako nakapatay ng tao pero nakapatay ako ng sariling faith, hope at pag-ibig sa Diyos at sa mga tao. And that, God also sees and considers as sin. And unconfessed sins brings so much sickness to my body and spirit. Yung hormonal imbalance na ang lala sobra. Uncontrollable emotions, anxiety and what-have-you. It was so dark there inside my own self without the light of Jesus. But the past days have been amazing with God moving in my life step by step. I've no words to say in prayer but God is filling my lips with the right thing to ...

Today I have come to understand how Jesus isn't only enduring when He was here. He is—as a matter of fact, at peace . His mind isn't running through some sort of blaming, doubting and hurting. He is not filled by those things towards the Father, or even towards anybody. I understand now, why, in the Lord's prayer, He was able to teach us how the Father in heaven is Faithful. Faithful. Faithful. He is not a father who leaves a house and leaves a home broken. As Jesus said, He is a Father whose will can be done here on earth as it is in heaven.  Loving. Loving. Loving.  David can attest to it; prays, he's never seen a righteous man forsaken nor their children begging bread. And you do too--you never let a loved one go hungry, don't you? Forgiving. Forgiving. Forgiving. Jesus witnessing how much the Father loves—His (Jesus) soiled, calloused feet walking the earth. The confidence that there is greater power in forgiveness. That love is also shown...

Who can measure what God does? Who can outgive Him? We can't but we sometimes make it seem like we could. There is jealousy in the love of God. That's why He he made certain of idolatry being abominable for Him. He offered His own Son for a bunch of selfish creatures just much more intelligent than the animals. He gave and took nothing in return. He just gave for God so loved the world.  And all that we could ever do is to get. Because we have to satisfy our needs. HOW WE LOVE HIM NOT We forget about Him, we forget about what He's done and go on doing what we've known and what we've already mastered. We would try be invulnerable of the Spirit and do our thing. When we settle for knowledge over wisdom. When we focus on welfare rather than salvation. For we, ourselves are no longer recepient of it. "They have forsaken Me, the fountain of living waters, and hewn themselves cisterns--broken cisterns that can hold no water." Jeremiah 2:13 What quench...

 "But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you." Matthew 6:33 "Why are they not here yet? Why am I not having this and that yet? Whatever happened to the thing I have spent my schedule on for weeks of prayer and the times I have fasted?" It's given already, you are Christian, you serve God. You've already "perfected" the Christian faith (or at least 'cause you just feel like it). You seem to have followed the Thou Shall not' s .  But is that all there is? Is that all the reason of the blood shedding, cross endurin g of Jesus? Are these all the reason for the Passion of Christ? We want our family restored. We want excellent service. Extravagant praise and worship. We want extensive growth in our ministry. We want people to know Jesus. To be a believer of Christ. We all want the best. We want to be the best. All for the glory of God.  And it is not bad wanting those ...

Do you think anyone is going to be able to drive a wedge between us and Christ's love for us? There is no way! Not trouble , not hard times , not hatred , not hunger , not homelessness , not bullying threats , not backstabbing , not even the worst sins ...   None of this faze us because Jesus loves us. I'm absolutely convinced that nothing-- nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable --absolutely nothing can get between us and God's love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us.  This is the The Message version of Romans 8:38-39. And this is a reminder of how firm God's love for me is.  I'm confident that those who have gone away from His loving arms would eventually get back to Him. Sooner or later. And I hope it's not a wee later than the second coming. I hope.  If God's mindset of His love over us is not hindered by any separation barriers, how much more sho...

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.   - Steve Jobs , CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, on June 12, 2005 FRIDAY IT'S JUST MY EMOTION feeling bad about everything. But I have the conviction that Someone loves me and suffered for me, and has taken every awful things one could experience just so I could have a choice not having them now. The conviction that makes me confident of everything that I have and getting those that I do not have... yet. THURSDAY I have all the intention and I fall short with my action. Unless I make Christ as my life's (and the desires, plans and ambitions that go with it) Chief Cornerstone. It has been a fulfillment having se...

I woke up today having great expectations on productivity and gladness. Indeed, God granted me my prayer with a mug of coffee, peanut butter toast and a good-read book. And a conversation with Dad which happens only when I wake up early and when he's not busy playing Plants Vs. Zombies.  Eh? Lunch time came and I was with my friends, when I'm supposed to be with the Aunts and Uncles. I ate Jollibee's Hashbrown Burger (and was sated by its unlikely taste. Hashbrown and burger: NOT A GOOD COMBINATION)  when I'm supposed to be gorging on Dampa's best.  I bought large fries for my nephew. I promised to give him yummy food for every good performance in school. He's got no "star" today but still I bought him food, since I'm at Jollibee and I have money , ha ha. I spent 46 Pesos for the fries, 80 Pesos for the Hashbrown burger meal and 32 Pesos for the transportation. And a few grams of energy for patience, for the long line of customers...

I always remember in my heart that our God is the God of covenant. One of the things that He values the most is our commitment to do what He says we should do. I can never have my own plans without the Lord determining it. I can never have my own desire without the Lord giving me wisdom if it's alright. God values what He had promised to us, and so, He also wants to be true with our YES-es to Him. It will never work without our participation. He loves us so much that He values our covenant and everything that we speak in prayer; our commitment; our submission; and the thing that sometimes hurt -our surrender. GOD's WORD -It's never a commandment for nothing. It's a love kept over a covenant to those who are true and obedient. I am true to my covenant with You, Lord. I am true to my covenant with my leaders. Even though I'd fail most of the time... I ask for a heart that keeps on going and keeps on desiring to be obedient and selfless just so You could use ...

In a different place with the same thoughts. Same circumstance to overcome. We really can't expect for situation to change itself. It must start from the inside. For what is inside has the potential to make a difference. What is inside can make a choice; either to conform or go against such and such. And what's more, FAITH stabilizes everything. FAITH BEGINS WITH SMALL CONQUESTS There is nothing impossible for him who believes. Do not conform yourself or accept the situation you are facing. God desires to give you victory and He wants you to reach a new level of conquest. Do not think that your dreams have come to an end. God is by your side and He will lead you to conquer every desire of your heart.   -Ps. Cesar Castellanos, Dream  

This was our last submission for our NSTP 2 class last semester. And I think I did great, he he. I passed the subject! Enjoy! 30 Principles I Live By 1. Where there is no sacrifice many things are being compromised. We may be doing the good thing yet the RIGHT thing is being neglected. 2. Laughter is NOT the best medicine, it's the inner peace that lingers on our soul. Laughter is nothing but physical, but the overflow of the heart's condition results to physical action.  3. It's not who you have invited, it's those who will stay.  4. Other people's heart is not our heart. We lessen our expectations with them 'cause their standards are not always the same with us. Having reminded of this always is being able to cope up with agitation. 5. Christianity is not for the sake of human convenience. That's why there are many who believe and still don't. Not till they find time to do so.  6. When nothing is good God is.  7. It's not always...

My ears are filled with not so strange sounds from a rescue operation. The scenario I mean. Now you imagine it; man on the radio, poor reception, battle still raging on, people shouting (be it a soldier or a civilian), gun shots, explosions... "Man down! Man down!" Are you hearing it more clearly now? If so, then we're both on with this. Keep on reading.  It's never a wonderful thing falling. Falling in love. (If you know the standards and have not yet met it, yes, it is not wonderful) Falling out of what have you. Falling and hitting the ground. Falling and hardly getting up. Seeing somebody fall. Falling on a trap. On  a miry clay. Hearing somebody fall. Seeing somebody hardly getting up. And vagueness in reading something about falling. It's something we don't usually talk about. It's something that doesn't catch our attention. But to whom & to what  it is connected it actually does.  To a man. Falling is quite a hard thing that can happen....

Don't act as if everything's okay . Something like that. Our Anatomy class professor told us yesterday.  If something's wrong, erase it. Then... draw it again.  Something like that. Our professor added. He just wanted things in order.  Drawings properly drawn.  College students not acting dumb.  His students really learning.  Tuition fee's a graduation assurance-worth.  And things that really  matter . Truly, it wouldn't hurt a wee of time having to erase some parts and draw again, since it's not going to be the whole image that you're gonna erase. Just some part of it. Just like what happens to us every single day. A 24-hours of drawing through rough edges or smooth surfaces, leaving dents on the pad. Still visible yet can be corrected. After all, if you get to finish it by having it done well ( in all honesty and having the conviction that you really did well ) you won't be disappointed anyway.  It won't hurt to just  erase some ...

With simple words, let me blog. I am always willing . I always want what is best for me and the people around me. I always want to do what is right . I am always willing. WILLINGNESS I bring to bed with me. Going to sleep expecting that tomorrow I'll be able to do things light-heartedly for... I am always willing . Expectations come greatly for... I know in my heart I always want to do what is right. But to make it happen is a different story. They won't happen as I expect them to be. They weren't so right as I imagined it would be. I wasn't so willing after all. That... what's inside my heart only stays to where it is, inside my heart. Problem is, I know, I understand, every part and every details, but I never respond to what I am supposed to do next. I skip. I only wanted the easy part. Willingness becomes easier said than done. As the Scripture puts it: "The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak." Or in much simpler words, not physically capa...

( http://x-shad0w.livejournal.com/ )   3 If you, O LORD, kept a record of sins,        O Lord, who could stand?   4 But with you there is forgiveness;        therefore you are feared.   5 I wait for the LORD, my soul waits,        and in his word I put my hope.   6 My soul waits for the Lord        more than watchmen wait for the morning,        more than watchmen wait for the morning. PSALM 130:3-6 The word of God that never fail to touch my heart. This is the hunger I've been letting myself to feel for my God. Everyday I pray to not cease feeling this way for my Lord. Thanks for our Youth Pastor, who posted this in his Wall. God chooses anyone He wants to speak to us. So, what you've been reading? Seeing? Can you hear God's voice speaking to you? Never second-guess God's ability to speak to you. Be in hun...

Many things I learned today, few things I will do. I've learned that it's really cool to do people shopping when you've got nothing to think of or at least trying to divert your mind from something you're sick of racking your brain to. But I can't do that anymore. It's bad. Do I have to explain its badness? I've learned that sometimes it's okay to be late in class just as long as you'll have good test results. And note-writing ability. But I can't do that anymore. I chose not to. I cannot tolerate my being late at school. It's not cool and I don't want to disappoint my parents who, in their selfless will, trying their very best to wake up early, prepare stuff for a hassle-free day for me, and the whole family. Their effort of going to work as early as they could so they'll have job and paycheck and so my tuition and baon. Wow. And I  thought of that just now? I've learned today that it's just okay to spend your 5-hour cl...

It was a wonderful day. I should have expect more knowing that my God can give it all.  And this is the chosen song to end my day today. MAJESTY. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vNjH8QDpBFY Here I am, humbled by your majesty, Covered by your grace so free. Here I am, knowing I'm a sinful man, Covered by the blood of the lamb. Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine, Since You laid down Your life, The greatest sacrifice. Majesty Majesty Your grace has found me just as I am Empty handed but alive in Your hands We sing Majesty Majesty Forever I am changed by Your love In the beauty of Your Majesty Here I am humbled by the love that You give, Forgiven so that I can forgive. So here I stand, Knowing that I am Your desire, Sanctified by glory and fire. And now I've found the greatest love of all is mine, Since You laid down Your life, The greatest sacrife. Majesty, Majesty. Your grace has found me just as I am, Empty handed but alive in yo...

Having looked past my old posts, I've realized that the two latest posts I've had were very gloomy and copypaste-d. Tsk. So, to make this one different and somehow "new". I'll make this one... taglish. Dahil 1 hour nang bukas ang Compose Blog Entry ng Mutliply at wala pa'rin ako'ng tamang salita para sa isusulat ko. Naisipan ko'ng gumawa na lang muna ng Prologue ng post ko'ng nagja-jumble pa sa utak ko. Ilang weeks na'ng hindi nalalamanan ang blog site ko. Kaya let me make kumpara my brain cells to an egg cell and a church cell member. Ang brain cells ko, Parang egg cell, sumasabog na lang sa uterus( ? ) kapag hindi na-develop at nag-grow. Parang cell member , nawawala at nagwawala na lang kapag hindi nag-grow at nag-mature. In short, may bloodshed na sa utak ko at malapit na'ng mamatay ang blogging skills ko. Dugyot na'rin ang journal notebook ko dahil kalat kalat na ang thoughts and stories ko na hindi ko na...